Breathe (2am)

This is a song I happened upon the other day on the way to work.     It reminds me of a lot of people all at once.   They can probably figure out who they are.   :)  

Sometimes, it’s important to take it all in and remember to breathe.

Breathe (2am)

by Anny Nalick

2 AM and she calls me ’cause I’m still awake,
“Can you help me unravel my latest mistake?,
I don’t love him. Winter just wasn’t my season”
Yeah we walk through the doors, so accusing their eyes
Like they have any right at all to criticize,
Hypocrites.

You’re all here for the very same reason

‘Cause you can’t jump the track, we’re like cars on a cable
And life’s like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button, girl.
So cradle your head in your hands
And breathe… just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe

May he turned 21 on the base at Fort Bliss
“Just a day” he said down to the flask in his fist,
“Ain’t been sober, since maybe October of last year.”
Here in town you can tell he’s been down for a while,
But, my God, it’s so beautiful when the boy smiles,
Wanna hold him. Maybe I’ll just sing about it.

Cause you can’t jump the track, we’re like cars on a cable,
And life’s like an hourglass, glued to the table.
No one can find the rewind button, boys,
So cradle your head in your hands,
And breathe… just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breatheThere’s a light at each end of this tunnel,
You shout ’cause you’re just as far in as you’ll ever be out
And these mistakes you’ve made, you’ll just make them again
If you only try turning around.

2 AM and I’m still awake, writing a song
If I get it all down on paper, it’s no longer inside of me,
Threatening the life it belongs to
And I feel like I’m naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud
And I know that you’ll use them, however you want to

But you can’t jump the track, we’re like cars on a cable,
And life’s like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button now
Sing it if you understand.
and breathe, just breathe
woah breathe, just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe.

 

 

 

Dogs are so strange

This is the second time this week a dog has entered my house smelling like a dead animal.    I imagine the

retriever found a rabbit of some sort.   The other day, they both rolled and rolled in the grass.  I figured they were scratching their backs, but then the STENCH when they were done!

I didn’t even go to look.  I figured there must be something horribly rotten that they could not resist spreading all over their bodies.

Even the resultant bath did not help.   It took two days to wear off.

The Best Thing

A quote from my friend, Lori, today:

thank you for saying such nice things about steve and me……………steve is by far the best thing that has ever happened to me.  we just make sense together.  he cares so much about me and our daughter that he would do anything to keep us happy.  he is my best friend and i can’t imagine him not being there every night when i get home from work to talk to him about my day.  he is nice to me, and he’s nice to everyone around him.  he’s one of the GOOD ONES……….

i reflect back on my life three years ago, and i can’t believe how much things have changed, FOR THE BETTER.  we all have to go through the hard stuff to get the good stuff sometimes…and if we’re lucky, we learn from it all instead of letting it drag us down.

I knew Lori back when she wasn’t so happy.    I’m glad that she found the right person for her.    This is how relationships can be when you know you’ve found the right one.

My Day

I spent part of the day with an old friend of mine (well, she is young, but I’ve known her for a long time).   She has a new husband and a new baby I’ve never met.    I had fun talking to Lori, her husband Steve and little Kate (a happy, bouncy baby… my favourite).

I spent a couple of hours with my daughter at the fitness center… swimming.     It was fun, but something about swimming makes me very tired.

I came home and listened to something that someone very wonderful gifted me with earlier this week.. a hypnosis audio that has proven to be quite helpful.

Despite my day, I’m feeling a little sorry for myself.    My mind keeps wandering off to that happy place (you know, the one where we are sitting at the beach, pushing our toes into the warm, wet sand on a sunny day)  the hypnotist has me pick out….    I yearn for the happy place, but in odd moments it seems as though it should be unattainable.    A good part of me does not believe it is unattainable.   (This is what we call a double negative, yes?   A good part of me believes it is attainable.   There.)    Did I distract you enough?

Then I play, “Feeling Good“, play the hypnotist audio, and everything seems reasonably right with the world.    (Note to self:   Don’t forget the happy place exists.)

Today’s Horoscope

Too true… I was up at 3am doing my calendar for today!

 

Dedication In Purposes
Cancer Daily Horoscope

You may feel purposeful and reliable today as you address your personal and professional responsibilities. A strong sense of purpose can drive you to devote yourself more fully to those activities and obligations that are related to your short- and long-term goals. Your commitment to fulfilling your purpose can give you extra energy and enthusiasm that can be channeled into both work and play. You may project an aura of dedication that causes people in positions of authority to take notice of and put their faith in you. An opportunity to advance in your career, change jobs, study at a university or abroad, or take a relationship to the next level may present itself today. You’ll likely cope with these changes in your day-to-day life with poise and grace today.

Understanding your soul’s purpose can help you maintain a strong attitude of dedication that makes fulfilling your obligations a joyful experience. When we drift aimlessly through life, the responsibilities we assume can seem a burdensome and aimless expenditure of time. Knowledge of purpose gives activity meaning by enabling you to comprehend the broader repercussion of your choice to devote yourself to a single path. Your resolve is cemented by the connection you feel to your purpose and the pride you feel upon accomplishing tasks that relate directly to the fulfillment of that purpose. In commitment, you will find satisfaction unlike any you’ve experienced before. Because your purpose is clear today, you will have little trouble fulfilling the expectations you have set for yourself.

I was nominated

for my company’s employee of the year award. I looked down the list of questions, which included several personal questions:

1. What do you do in your spare time?
2. Do you have any church or community affiliations?
3. Have you won any awards or commendations?
4. What are your personal goals?

Part of me wanted to say, “Can you please just take my name off the list?” I didn’t want to answer any of these questions. But that would be rude.

I went to meet with the VP of Marketing. Sweet woman, probably around my age, and very friendly. She interviewed several people who had been nominated. We all had this set of questions to answer, along with several work-related or company-related questions.

She asked me about my contribution to my team. I mentioned something about communication and documentation and being team-oriented.

She said..

“One thing I’ve noticed about you is that you’re always on an even keel. It doesn’t matter what’s going on.. you could be really frazzled inside, for all I know, but you never show it. You just float gracefully along.”

You can’t beat that.

I remember a couple of years ago when I never thought I would find a better job than the one I had. I laugh at that now.

Quote of the Day

“I felt it shelter to speak to you.” - Emily Dickinson

What I Did Today.. in Pictures (not mine)

I Remember Everything You Say..

Ever have one of those people in your life where you can remember everything they say (everything important, that is) and when they said it?    Can you still say “yes” to that question, even when you can’t remember, having been in Wal-Mart (or Sainsbury’s) for an hour or more, where the heck your car is parked? 

It’s the Weekend…

.. and I’m not going anywhere. It feels odd. I’ve been away the last two weekends. I suppose I could have stayed in Dallas forever and been perfectly happy, really. It was so nice and warm and the company was quite good. I enjoyed that time immensely, and I enjoyed the weekend before (although I’m not quite as fond of Kansas City as I used to be) with my other brother’s family.

Me… being with my original family… a rare occurence.

My parents are currently vacationing this week in Natchez, MS. I bet it’s warm there, too. I only mention it because, while yesterday was in the upper 70’s F, today is not quite as luxurious.

My life… somewhat upside down. Someone will be along later to say, “It’s going to be fine.” I know it will be. Life has a habit of being fine, doesn’t it. There are blessings to be counted, there are things to look forward to you. For everything inbetween, there are Kleenex.   (and chocolate animal crackers dipped in cream cheese frosting)